Last Weekend

                              

 I can't believe its been 9 months already... When I think about the morning sickness, afternoon sickness, sleepless nights curled on the bathroom floor, yeah it feels long but now that I'm here, at the last weekend before i become a mama, it all feels like it rushed by. The photo above means a lot to me because it was taken before my husband and I took off to go to a wedding. I had bought a new dress a week before and it fit like a glove, then the day of our friends wedding i felt the dress was tighter than what I remembered. I had no idea I was pregnant.

I remember surprising my husband by putting the pregnancy test in a bracelet box and having him open it. He was definitely surprised. I held on to that test. Boy has pregnancy been a wild ride. My whole body and face has changed. I dont have that pregnancy glow as so many other women do during pregnancy. In reality, I dont think I'm a cute pregnant woman. ha hah ha

I miss my body and my face, i miss the old me!! I miss my butt, my waist and being able to wear my everyday jewelry. With pregnancy, my nose has doubled in size, all my lashes have practically vanished and Im just all around BIG!! I have lost ALL control of how I eat. So in other words, I let myself go and couldnt help it....

But, this is my last few days of being pregnant. I am looking forward to meeting my precious baby. My life is going to change in every way possible. As excited as I am to be a new mom I am also excited to get back to the old me! well not the "old" me but the way I use to feel. Im being realistic about things and not expecting to bounce back in a few weeks. After all, I have 50 pounds to lose! thats a lot!! I look forward to recognizing myself again when I look in the mirror and not this bloated, swollen version of myself. 

The picture with the lightened hair is before I was pregnant and the picture with dark hair is me during pregnancy. You can see some of the changes in my face. I spared you all from seeing the rest of me. lol...

Its all a part of life though, our different phases of life. Im coming up on territory that i know nothing about and im really excited to see what unfolds I plan on documenting my weight loss, my transition back to working and all that comes along with motherhood....motherhood, feels strange that Im going to be a mom. wow...

                                              Pretty Lights~ The Time Has Come

Time Keeps Moving On

On the eve of my 32 birthday I find myself listening to music and looking at photos of myself from the past. We never notice our youth till the years are behind us, isnt that funny? I guess you could say Im feeling very nostalgic, happy and thankful for where my life is. Sure there are people from my past that I miss dearly and wish things would have turned out differently but I wouldnt be who I am today, or be where I am today if I didn't go through my experiences. I remember a time when 30 years of age sounded so old and serious and look, here I am now, a few hours away from being 32. Time keeps moving on, days turn into weeks, weeks into months and months into years. Soon Im going to be a mama and Ill be witnessing (God willing) my daughters life take shape. Ill share stories and remember the excitement of 'firsts' in things.

Life is truly beautiful, we all go through the same sort of emotions just different levels of experiences. I hope to celebrate more birthdays in good health and happiness and have the people I care most about next to me celebrating with me.

My Own Maternity Shoot

                                            

I finally got my maternity pictures done. Im 35 weeks pregnant and not as mobile as Id like to be. Pregnancy is a beautiful thing but it is also so very hard on the body. I have suffered from  Chronic Sciatica since I was 16 years old and with this pregnancy it has just intensified. The pool really helps minimize the pressure and constant ache. I will admit though, I havent been in the pool half as much as I should have been. Anyhow, I wanted to do something unique and different for my maternity shoot. Being a stylist I have the pleasure of working maternity shoots and seeing the style most women gravitate towards. I wanted to go something I havent seen much of and well, here you have it, my underwater shoot.

My husband bought a GoPro not too long ago and we have been talking about all the filming we will take of our daughter with it. Somewhere along those conversations we decided it would be great to go underwater too!! The outfit is actually my wedding dress torn up and wrapped around me. Yup, I tore up one of my wedding dresses. Why not, right?? We laughed so hard during this shoot. Its so much harder to stay under water while pregnant than I thought. I kept floating up!! lol. Good memories.

This was our first attempt, I think we will be trying out some more different styles but at night!

You Are Our Sunshine..Our Only Sunshine..You Make Us Happy

April 7th was our baby shower and we had such a lovely time. My mama worked really hard to prepare and cook food for a few days. I love and respect her so much for everything she has worked so hard for. the day was beautiful and everyone was laughing and chatting together. Of course, I realized a little too late that I had forgotten to invite a few people (pregnancy brain) and felt guilty about it but something tells me they will understand.

Its almost time, 6 weeks left and I will be able to hold my sweet precious ray of light in my arms. Kiss her sweet plump lips and begin my journey as her mother. I have had a really tough pregnancy and I havent been eating as healthy as I should. I have shoved everything in sight into my mouth and have seen through photos how much my face and body have changed. I suppose it goes with the territory but it is hard and I do plan on doing things differently should I have another baby. But for now, this pregnancy, I am just plumping up my baby girl, my love, my purpose in this world. My husband Michael and I talk about her every single day and our excitement grows more and more the closer we get to our delivery date. A little girl.... I am so excited about it. My husband is so thrilled to have a little girl. I cant wait to see us in action as parents. It will definitely be interesting since we come from two different cultures. Persian culture is rather strict and hard on children and I actually like it that way. My husband balances me out with explaining how things should be. We'll see how it all goes...

Her nursery is almost done, just needs a few books and art pieces and were in business.

Havent posted in a really long while, been working and incubating a human. Hopefully after baby comes Ill post more...

Playboy 2013

did hair/makeup/body contouring for some special guests of the Playboy Mansion for their Masquerade ball. these lady were so lovely to work on